Road to Separation...

There are no words left to describe

All the hurt I feel inside...

The pain of your loss

Lingers in all that I do.

I'm wishing,

Praying,

I could be with you !

Why'd you have to go

And fall for her ?

Why'd you have to go

And leave me alone ?

Why'd you have to be on that road 

That night ?

Why'd you have to walk

Towards that pearly white light ?

There are no words left,

None that could ever describe

The pain of the hole that was left inside....

Day after day

I missed you so much...

Night after night

I could almost feel your touch...

In such a short time

You broke my heart twice;

And you left me here

Without so much as a goodbye !

Only a dream...

Your touch felt like heaven to me.

Your arms felt as real as reality.

More real than life has ever seemed.

You are all and everything I need.

You brought me to the highest ecstasy,

We're all alone, just you and me.

Your presents, far from an illusion.

True love, like a gentle conclusion.

We stayed in this embrace 'til past noon,

Why did this dream have to end so soon?

Feelings felt miraculously pure,

Reality felt so close to shore.

Forever was in your eyes,

Beautiful simplicity, no surprise.

Anything to stay here,

The only way to feel you near.

Please don't fade away,

I need you more and more each day.

I love you more than the highest mountain on earth,

I knew I belonged to you from the day of my birth.

This dream, only coming from my inner-mind,

But look at all I could find.

It's time to wake-up and face the morning breeze,

These tears I will have to seize.

I keep telling myself sadly, over and over again..

"It was only a dream"

But how can I believe it, when you were just standing before me?

Till we meet again...

Somebody came into my life unexpectedly.

I didn't know who that somebody is or who that may be;

During those days I was full of sorrow

Thinking about tomorrow !

Will I let that somebody completely cross the line 

And accept that it was really mine ?

Or will I just leave that somebody 

Then live my life usually ?

Suddenly, I had a dream..

At first I didn't know what does it mean,

But I continuously pray at night

Inside my room lit with a dim light..!!

Finally, I found the answer,

I am going to love this somebody, I swear

Call me a fool,

But I am willing now to share my body and soul..!

I called this somebody 'Meow';

I will shower all my care and love.

Asked my angel to be with me day and night;

Linger for another day and wait for the sun to light.

Yet something had happened without warning,

And left me with almost nothing.

My angel came unexpectedly,

Then went away unpredictably...!

It was so depressing,

I felt like dying;

But I was wrong,

Instead it made me strong..!!

Although my angel did go away,

But I know my angel will be with me everyday

To take all the sorrow,

And will help me face a successful tomorrow..!

My angel will still be here ,

My angel will ease my fear,

There will come a day 

That my angel will come again my way...

I know my angel won't be lonely

For my angel will always be alive in my memory.

Existence of death...

Existence is what I am here,

Solitude is what I fear,

All alone nothing but my own,

Without you I can't find home.

Invincible, I wish I would be..

The love I long for, why not me ?

This pain keeps me in sorrow

Hope there is a way tomorrow..!!

With him I see you face to face,

Fragile I am as my love comes in blaze..

Now I know you are million miles away;

Then forgetting is what I pray...

I keep on running to find a way

I was lost when I begged you to stay

You left me and still I am asking you why ?

Please stay! Please stay! Thats my cry...

I don't quite what now to say...

I am in misery! Please take it away.

How I feel you can never understand...

This pain made me lame, I can't stand.

Now the end is what I so long for

Dreadful I am; is this making me sore ?

Tears keep on falling and its like a threat

Made my existence feel like worse than death...

My horrible dream...

My phone buzzed all night, 

But I tried to ignore it.

Early the next morning 

It finally woke me.a

Still half asleep I picked it up....

My heart got excited, 

The text was from you.

But it soon calms down as I read on...

You said that you were sorry ,

And that you hope we can be friends.

But you are starting to think 

Our relationship needs to end.

I shut the phone and take it all in.

I guess I never thought that you be gone,

But now that you are,

I don’t think I can be strong..!!

And then I hear my mom call my name,

She sounds so very far away.

I wake up and realize it was just a dream.... 

And then I hear it…that dreadful sound,

The sound of my phone receiving a text;

I pick it up opening it slowly, 

Praying that my dream doesn’t come true

And then my world crashes down...

Because you said those awful words;

The ones that took me away from you...

Love gone...

We started as friends.

Never did we imagine,

Never did we realize

We’ll end up lovers.

First few months were sweet.

Every moment worth to keep.

First kiss was ecstatic,

First touch was magnetic.

Never been dull when were together,

We make each day to last forever.

Hearts unite, love abounds

It felt good being in love.

Now, I see a different you.

Silent words, cold touch,

Vague look, empty smile,

All you give makes me blue.

All I do is cry..!!

I fail no matter how I try.

My walls silently listen

As if it feels my painful heart.

I know no mistake I did,

I have just loved and cared much...

If I could just be numb

So as not be hurt.

I wish to end this life,

Broken heart and broken soul...

Is the love gone?

Or you have just found somebody new?

Tell me honestly,

Say goodbye if you must...

Though today it hurts much

Tomorrow, I deserve to laugh.

All I thought...

Knowing someone like you

On the day that I was feeling blue,

Was an unforgettable moment

That I always thought you were heaven-sent.

Days went by

You painted my face with a sweet smile; 

Then later on, we’ve turned out to be lovers

That I thought we were like charming blooming flowers.

I’ve been to places that I’ve never been before,

I’ve been there with you, and I thought I couldn’t ask for more.

All the time we’ve been together

I thought it was like an adventure...

I remember the day when it was sunny,

We were still happy even if we have no money

‘Cause I’ve believed that having you, was like having a treasure;

And I thought loving you was my ever pleasure.

I always thought you were an angel in disguise,

I saw caring in your eyes,

You were an out of the ordinary being 

I thought you were the one I was always searching...

Your presence made my world go round,

Your absence always made me frown.

You took away all my fears

That was why I thought, you would also wipe away my tears...

I liked the way you talk,

I even appreciated the way you walk.

But you were eaten by your pride

And I thought I could just carry on inside...

I’ve been good,

But you’ve been rude

I was there

I thought you would care.

You’ve got tenderness in every touch,

I thought you really missed me so much,

I gave you my loyalty,

And so I thought you were also dedicated to me...

I always thought you were the one;

I thought you would be there with a helping hand;

And I thought the best love story had begun

But what hurts most, I thought you were my girl…

Remembrance...

Where we are

Is where we've always been.

And I will go with you

Crossing the dunes to Black Point

Counting the life rings of broken branches...

It was happiness, left unspoken

That set it all here

Praying at the failing of the altar

Pouring it out for credence dear...

A feeling from the speaking moon

Hand and hand it all unfurled;

Should've stayed on route

Driving the burden down the line,

from impending hate...

You and I took it for life !

Summer sweat smelled through citronella

When the mosquitoes came out

Biting and swelling me more and more,

'Til it became harder and harder to breathe...

You sang...

" Sweet love take me away

King of the tides left me crumbling

While I'm left with nothing to say. "

At your deliverance...

The panorama closing in

Playing time against it all.

In narrow view of where it all began,

With a rock under the bridge of the beach;

Chalked with our names

Forever to blame for our demise,

Mumbling of angel's words,

The gleam shine through the fray of severance...

" Crying at your door

Knocking in agony, ignored

Each gasp to let me in

As tears continued to pour... "

Only love did me this way,

Sweet moment of stumbling

On my final stay of remembrance... !!!

Lost my Love...

Love……a word that means so much;

A feeling that defies all rational description.

Given to us by God Almighty in a single touch;

And expressed by us through confusing emotion.

It is this love that brought us together

That we into a single family would unite

And we promised that it would be for ever

Because our love was intense and not finite.

Years went by and our family grew

Blessed immensely with strength and beauty

Our children went from a couple to twice a few.

Our love for them is a pleasure rather than a duty.

But wicked turns this life on us would play

Our future placed in the vicious hands of poverty.

And our marriage seemed to wallow and decay

Long will this last and we face evil uncertainty.

Tried we did to make things better but to no avail

Deeper down we sank and then ill we got

The task was so great that we could not prevail

The battle tough, loving each other was what we forgot.

Desperate, you sought an escape and found it in a game

Frail I became as I was consumed by self doubt.

I felt I had failed you all and that I was the one to blame.

You found refuge amongst others when I was not about.

Uncontrollably I would rage and curse and swear

Fear and suspicion would eventually tear us apart

My love for you being taunted beyond that which I could bear.

Though I never struck you, my words broke your heart. 

I would become obsessive and try as I might

To find out what was going on I began to pry

But push you away I did and you locked up tight.

Until eventually to the arms of another you would fly.

Of this I would learn and my heart would break

For my forever would now suddenly just arrive

And all my trust in you it would take

It is in shock and disbelief that I was to survive.

From that hurt and despair, today I am on the mend.

And stronger I have become as I have moved ahead

So sadly it is our relationship that has come to an end.

And it is in history our story will one day be read.

I forgive you and I have set you free

And I wish that for you eternal happiness you receive

My wish is that one day you will pardon me

Because it is still in love forever that I believe.

The Loss of a Beloved...

My mother called me into her opaque room, I didn’t know what to expect,

It was a heartbroken conversation that I would forever keep in mind, 

I listened to her mournful words with all respect,

Knowing that it was not my fault this time.

Her words will everlastingly haunt me,

Telling me that my beloved father is lifeless,

Hearing this news only six days before my birthday party,

I was without a doubt, speechless.

My only longing was to spend more time with him,

Who would’ve known that he would vanish ?

I wake up with nothing but memories that are dim,

Feeling like a nine year old who was banished,

Days were filled with nothing but sorrow,

Remembering crying myself to sleep,

Especially hoping to make it through tomorrow,

But this hope is something that I will always keep.

Six years later still wondering what I could’ve changed,

Maybe writing him more could’ve been a choice,

Allah will have an enormous punishment for that gang,

I wish I could just hear my father’s voice.

Time to time I read his letters,

Accepting the fact that he’s watching over me,

Believing this helps me feel much better, 

But I still need him as you can see.

Days go by and all I have is memories,

I should’ve used my time wisely,

Sick of missing you, can’t seem to find the remedies,

Sorry for my foolish ways, please don’t despise me.

My only thought is to have you here,

This is my last wish that I hope and pray,

You will forever be loved, sometimes expressed with tears,

Since you have disappeared, I have gone astray.