Where Do I Go ?

I sometimes brood and sit by myself

Wondering if you ever felt the way I felt

Where do I go when there's no help?

Suicidal thoughts tell me to go left

But I know taking me away

Wont help cause close to you I want to stay.

I know perfection is not for anyone to be

But for some reason you are the one on who I see;

Even though that isn't right.

My thoughts are high as a plane

While we talk all night...

But there is always that one same fight

As if we were on different flight

My life was lost until you came to my side

And showed me hope. 

It was there so for you I stayed alive

I look at you and see your love with no sense,

But for some reason 

You chose our journey to end.

I chose seconds over minutes

I look at you, but in a different scene; 

I don't understand the words you speak

Do you know what I mean?

I thought we were meant to be a team

But I guess there wont be such... 

All I need you to know

Is that I LOVE you 

LOVE you so so much....

Heart-breaker...

Its been a long time

Since I've written you a rhyme,

Its been a while

Since I've seen you smile.

Its been days

Since I've seen your enlightened face,

Its been weeks

Since I've heard you speak.

Its been forever since it was only us who walked,

Its been forever since we've had a heart to heart talk.

Its already becoming a trend,

We're only spending time with friends.

I don't want to make it a fuss,

But we never have time for us.

I always dream of my arm around your waist,

And the sweet delicious taste

Of your warm and tender kiss,

It is all of these that I miss.

I don't know how you feel,

And if what you say is real.

Your emotions nowadays never show,

And now I will never know.

I don't know who you even are,

We're so disconnected and you seem so far.

Its me this feeling is haunting,

I don't even know if its me your wanting.

Maybe I shouldn't complain,

You too might feel the same pain,

But I guess thats it, I'm all worn out,

I have forgotten love, and what its all about.

You have wiped the smile of my face,

You have made me look so blue,

Its only occurred to me now,

That its over and its through.

You were more than just a fling,

It was only yesterday when I almost heard church bells ring.

You have given me the world

Well thats what I thought,

I didn't expect you to end up as 

Something you were not.

With you I could have done anything if I tried,

You weren't worth all the tears that I have cried.

I thought you were different 

I thought you would stay,

But you took advantage 

You threw my heart away.

We promised each other our trust

And that we would both play fair,

We promised each other our honesty 

And that we would both be there.

I found out that you were a girl of many faces,

This was just another disguise,

I found out later you were playing me 

And you were full of lies.

So why am I writing you this poem? 

Here, I'll give you a clue!

I cant stand it, 

I don't know what to do.

I have fallen for the wrong girl,

I have fallen for a faker,

I have done the stupidest thing,

I have fallen for a heart-breaker.

Everything To Me...

You left me here.

Without anything to hold on to

Nothing but sad memories

And a song that I can't stand to listen to

Thanks for the times that meant

Everything to me

But nothing to you.

I was just a game, a test run.

Just to see how things would go

I guess you didn't like it

Because you pulled over

And left me here alone

You walked away from this 

Like it never happened

But in reality you held my hand

You kissed my lips

You held me close

And you pushed away the memories

That meant the most

We still talk like we use to,

Laugh when nothing's funny

And look at each other

Like we're still inlove

Someone came between us

And that person got in the way

Of you being my everything

So I'm sorry I wasn't good for you

But I'm here for you, no matter what

Because you were everything to me

When I was nothing to you

And I'm still holding on to the memories

Like we both use to.

Can't Move on...

Looking back only makes me mad;

I can see what I loved,

I remember how it was.

I hate my feelings all the time,

And I can't run away from my depressing rhymes.

Jealous of the ones you actually love,

You make them seem blessed,

You treat them as if they are divine.

Never giving me my time,

And allow me to shine.

I must be worth nothing to you,

‘‘Cause with every word you say

You constantly turn me away.

No longer are you words pure,

And my direction with you is unclear

My heart is fragile,

My words are heavyhearted,

My thoughts are miserable,

Every step is suffering,

And every part tells me the loving is foregone.

Everything we had is gone.

I should move on,

But my heart keeps pushing me along.

I can only see what your putting in front of me,

And your clogging my thoughts

With what we used to be.

The long past of when we were perfect,

And I wasn't so down

In pain I wasn't about to drown.

Times are different now;

I must leave you behind,

The memories I had I'll disavow 

Throwing you out of my mind.

I'm letting those moments rot in time,

I'm showing you I'm not blind,

That my life I can find

Without us entwined.

But will I ever rewind

The lies in my heart

That you loved me from the start.

The times you denied impart

While tearing us apart.

Will I be able to part?

Is my heart ready to depart?