We are no more...

Where do I start ?

I don't even remember

I guess it all started 

Way back in November...

Things got really close

Way way too fast

But i hoped in my heart 

That it would always last...

But deep down inside me

Was a voice to be heard

A voice screaming at me

Saying it was absurd...

Telling me I was crazy

Telling me I was wrong

Telling me it wouldn't last

Wouldn't last for very long...

And the more the voice grew

The more I pushed it away

Because in my fragile heart

I wanted to believe you would stay...

but the voice wasn't lying,

It knew what was right

But I tried to believe in you

I tried with all my might...

Then I woke up one morning

Expecting the best day I've had in years,

But to my surprise

The day would end in tears

I told myself it was over

And that I was OK !

But deep down inside

There were things I had to say...

...I want you 

...I miss you

...I love you

...I need you

Those are the things

I wanted you to see

But i knew in my heart

That we could never be

But that didn't matter to me 

Because I couldn't stop my desire

Because when you broke my heart

You left me with a fire...

It started out as a flicker

Maybe even a small flame

But I knew that soon to come

My feelings would be down the drain...

But that wasn't the case

Not in the least bit

The flame kept growing

And I feel like burning in it...

And when you look at me now

Every time I pass by,

Your eyes look empty

And I don't even know why !

Why do you like me today ?

Why won't you like me tomorrow ?

Why do you fill my life with joy ?

Why do you fill my life with sorrow ?

I just wish things could be simple

Like they used to be

So close to one another

Not caring whose there to see.

Like when I used to look into your eyes

Your eyes so beautiful blue

And all I wanted to do forever

Was to sit there holding you...

I wish you were still my baby

The one that I adore

But now it just seems 

Like we are no more...

Nameless Love....

I've never wanted anything so bad

But to hold you in my arms

For just one moment

Be the lover that you kiss

Be the lover that you hold 

In your dreams

That’s all I wanted 

But faith has took you away

Far where you have no name

Now you are my lost love 

A love without a name

I've never wanted anything so bad

But to feel your love until infinity 

For just one moment

To be lost in your eyes

To be blessed from heaven

In my dreams

That’s all I wanted 

But faith has took you away

Far where you have no name

Now you are my lost love 

A love without a name

And it’s your voice what keeps me here

Makes me linger between heaven and hell

Like a lost soul blown by the wind

Never facing forward to find the peace

I am just lost in love

In a love without name

You left me with nothing left to win

And so much to lose

And it’s your words what keeps me here

Makes me disappear without a trace

Like a glittering star faded by the sun

Never able to overtake its faith 

I am just lost in love

In a love without name

You left me with nothing more to win

And so much to lose

And still...

The door on my heart is open

Hoping one day someone will show

Tears are not Enough...

My mind begins to wonder

My heart begins to race

As the memory of you

Drifts back into place

I got a picture of you smiling

With a sparkle in your eyes

You looked at me so gently

And kept me mesmerized

AS much as I tired

Your face wouldn't go away

Your eyes, your lips, your smile,

I thought of you all day

It was soon about three

With you still on my mind

I thought while listening to music

In a flash it was nine

I made my bed

To get some rest

As I lay down

I thought of nothing less

The most important memories

Replayed over and over again

And I realized how I missed you

As the days replayed again

No, I hadn't known you very long

But you had such an effect on me

You captured my heart within a day

As I begin to fall wishing for you and me

The way it felt when we touched

The way you made me feel

It seemed that you were too perfect

To even be real

And that's when the tears

Begin to form in my eyes

They told myself how much I missed you,

But I did not want to cry

I hugged my teddy bear

To soften the pain

But it reminded me that it wasn't you,

And the tears they formed again

I remember the first night you kissed me,

How the silence spoke so many words,

There was so much silence but so much said,

You said nothing and I heard

I don't know why

Thinking of you hurts me so

It seems like we had both nothing and everything,

And I still can't let that go

I pick up the phone

With hope in my heart

I dial the number

Still sitting in the dark

The operator answered

I dial the number to your room

She connects me, no trouble

I might talk to you soon

But no surprise

Your gone yet again

She says you'll be home

She just doesn't know when

So I set down the phone

Curling up into a ball

Somehow convincing myself

That you don't care at all

So once again those days replay

But this time I let a couple tears fall

I stop myself before it gets to far

I let some of it go, but not it all

I want to cry but at the same time I don't,

But I know I have to be tough,

Because in my heart I know

That tears are not enough...

Fighter...

I still have scars but they are fading,

Along with the memories of you and I,

I'm moving on and walking away,

You're not worth the tears that I cry.

It's your turn to feel pain and be alone,

Like I have done for so many years,

But now, today, I'm picking myself up,

I'm forever wiping away those tears.

I know one day that you will be back,

Ready to use me once again,

But before you get here I'll be long gone,

Because I'm throwing away you and the pain.

I'm stronger now than I was before,

And I know that's all down to you,

I'm not as weak as I once was,

Thanks for making me a fighter too.

I owe you for doing what you did to me,

I guess I have you to praise in a way,

If it wasn't for you I'd be a crumbling mess,

You made me who I am today.

So thanks for all the hurt and the pain,

And breaking my heart into two,

My defenses are up and I'm keeping my guard,

I'm a fighter because of you ...