Why ? ....

Why do I love you 

With all my heart?

Why did I fall for you

From the start?

Why do you cause me

So much pain?

Why do you stick to my heart

Like a stain?

Why couldn't I see

You weren't gonna stay?

Why did I believe

You were gonna take the pain away?

Why did you play my heart

Like a game?

Why couldn't you ever

Feel the same?

Why do I sit 

In my room all alone?

Why do I pray

You would call my phone?

Why did you end it

Right after our one year?

Why didn't it bother you

When you made my eyes tear?

Why cant I stop thinking of you,

Why can't I say goodbye

Why do I still get jealous

When I see you with another guy?

Why do you come back in my life

As soon as I'm letting go?

Why do I still get butterflies

When you just say hello?

Why can't I forget about you

And put you in the past?

Why does a part of me still believe

That me and you were made to last?

Wishing Stars...

I sit up and look at the stars 

Out my window at night,

To see if there is a shooting star

anywhere in sight.

It went past me so fast 

As I said the magic words

I wish I may..

I wish I might..

Be given a second chance

To have you in my life..

I wish we could be

And that you were still here with me

So that I can go back to the days

When you were so good to me...

I would change your ways

So that we could be together

And I could still love you

Forever and ever!!

I wouldn't do stupid things

So that you would hurt me

I would just love

And let you continue to love me...

I wish I may..

I wish I might..

Have one more wish tonight...

To see you again

So that we could be more 

Than just friend

To kiss you..

To hold you..

I would wish you 

To never let go of me

But as I end my last wish

I now it will never come true

Because you are in love with

Someone else now,

While I'm alone hoping 

And wishing to be with you !!!

The Unsent Letter...

I wish I could say

How much I care for you

But I don't know how

So here's what I'll do...

I'll write you a letter

Saying what I've been through

Day after day

Always thinking of you !

I don't see you much

But when I do it makes me cry

So I'll write to you

Without a lie...

I'll say that I love you

The first line that I write

So you instantly know

At your first sight...

I'll say that I dream

I'll say that I fly

And without you

I'd probably die...

I'll say that I smile

As I write you the note

I'll say that I wished

I could wear your big coat...

I'll say that whenever

I close my eyes

I see you face

It never dies..

I'll say that you're perfect

In every possible way

That I wish I could hold you

Every single day...

I'll say that I wish

You were here with me

But it's crazy beacuse

I know you can't be...

Do you think about me

Or did you forget

The things we had done

And the goals we had set ?

But after I read

My note once again

I realize I'd never send it

It's a waste of my pen...

You'd see it, and read it

Then throw it away

You don't care anymore

To yourself you would say...

I stare at my paper

With a sad pout

Then shred it to peices

And throw it out !!

Frozen Love...

I always thought we'd grow old together.
Facing each new day.
But now, in the tears that fall upon my face.
Your memory fades away.


We walked with our problems in silence.
Dawn falling into dusk.
Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet.
Along with what grieved us.


In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls.
I want to scream and shout.
My mouth opens, but the tortured words...
Just won't come out.


You! This lady I began to love.
Got lost for a "Nothing".
Everything we'd built, was destroyed
Over one careless fling.


Used to think I was so lucky.
I had it all.
Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed.
You just watched me fall.


My heart bleeds.
The snow becomes red.
How life has mocked you...?
Were you ever here? Memories gone, dead !


Your like salt on an open wound.
Reminding me you once were here.
Warm like the blood in my veins.
The love I had for you, so dear.


In my distorted, broken dreams.
So empty, yet real.
I'm floating through air.
I touch your face, hoping to feel.


This frozen silence belongs to you.
I'm all that you see.
I only want revenge.
Giving back what you gave to me.


Sorry I loved you so.
And you didn't feel the same.
When I think of what could have been.
What a waste! Such a shame!


Stone by stone, I'll re-build my life.
I'm stronger when hardest hit.
I know only to well.
This is the time I must never quit.


My conscious asks the question.
I long to hear.
Is the grass really greener on the other side?
My conscious asks the question...
That I will always fear.

Black and Blue...

You broke my heart 

What am I to say ?

Didn't you think 

Before you threw us away ?

Why did you do it ?

Was I not enough ?

Did you think the pain wouldn't hurt me ?

Didn't you think you would lose my trust  ?

Why did you hurt me,

And then hurt me more ?

Why do you think its sorted, 

And brush the probs under the door ?

Why can't you see 

I`ve changed so much ?

Not that I like it 

But I had to get tough

This anger that eats me so 

Drives me mad but I cant let it go...

I cry and scream 

But they are not heard.

I want to run away 

Never be found

But thats not right

Nor would I be mean

I just want to find peace 

Not sorrow no more for me

No more pain please 

I can't hack it you see

Cause one day 

It will end me 

I'm not punishing myself 

Nor punishing you 

But I just cant take it 

I`m black and blue.

My gift for you...

When I first saw you I knew it was true

My heart missed a beat and I know yours did too...

The magic was there, so fresh and so strong

And I knew for a fact that we had to belong.

No words had to be spoken,the love was just there

Oh my god sweetness im in total despair

Your talents are eternal with this I must say

My god I hope to be with you again some day

I respect the choice you made and all that you decide

But I would just like you to know I want you by my side

It was so beautiful and it felt so right and your embrace

Was like a diamond sparkling in the light.

You are my precious...You are my rose...You are my sun

And you are my life.

You are my dolphin that swims in the sea...

The touch of your skin, how I do so miss

Because to put quite simply it was bliss

Will we ever touch again, I know the answer is yes

Because I know we are supposed to be together

oh yes! oh yes! oh yes!

My love for you is eternal and will always be there

I have found my happiness in loving you...........

This is my gift for you !!!

Retreat

She pauses in tenacious indecision,

Naked toes poised above the water,

Desert pool stilling

With her apprehension,

Her quiet crisis of conscience.

There are so many

Pitfalls to this aquatic dance,

Politics mixing with religion

Pitted against love.

As we lock eyes

And she glances

Quickly, timidly away,

I fear our future dying.

She withdraws her foot

To hot sandstone with a sigh,

Temple law warring with passion.

"Beloved, we risk everything,"

She moans with finality.

Her eyes fill with such certainty

That I know our union

(Whether in this sacred pool

Or in pharoah’s city)

Is doomed.

Heart-staggered,

I rise from the waters silent stunned,

Lurching, spinning, groping toward escape,

Passed steps she wards.

Translucent cloth slides along

Her flesh to pool about her feet.

Her hand upon my chest,

Her rapt gaze steadying me.

"It is but our truth, beloved,"

She whispers,

Kisses my lips in proclamation.

"Yet I do not retreat."