Tired of Waiting...

Every morning I wait to see

If you would pass me by.

I know that you don't think of it

I don't have to ask you why...

I pray for the slightest moment

When you and I could talk,

We could laugh at how our day is going

And maybe we could take a walk.

But knowing you, you have no time

I cannot blame you at all.

But you can't blame me for wanting you

As I walk alone in the hall...

If I am able to make time for us

Then shouldn't you be able too ?

It seems that everything that's done...

I do it all for you !

You want us both to take it slow,

But how slow do you really mean?

Because it seems like we're going nowhere

It's like the end with no in-between...

It hurts me so, to see you there,

It hurts to know how you feel,

Because our emotions are so the same

But I wonder if it's really real...

To know that you feel that for me

But you have no time for it,

You know that I’m on the verge of doubt

It's hard not to ignore it...

I do not want to hurt you again,

I know you don't want to try.

But it seems that there's no time for me

And that makes me want to cry...

You claim to not have a life

But I have none just as well,

I'm trying to make something out of this

In case you couldn't tell....

The signs are pointing strongly around

My feelings remain the same;

I'm trying hard to make this work,

But to you, I do not give the blame...

I never mean to rush you,

But it seems that time is fading.

I can only stay so long for you,

But I’m just so tired of waiting...

Back in Time...

I see the way you hold him

The same way you held me,

You two seem so inseparable

Just like we used to be...

I can see it in your eyes

He's always on your mind.

I try to be happy for you,

But I can't understand 

How easily you put our love behind...

I would give anything,

My life and all

To simply go back 

To that telephone call...

To take back those words

And make everything okay,

To swallow my pride

And ask you to stay...

To get back the love

That is supposed to be mine,

To take back the pain

So everything could be fine...

To feel your sweet kiss

And know you belong to me,

To hear you whisper in my ear

About the way things will be...

To fall asleep listening

To the beat of your heart,

To hear you promise me

We'll never be apart...

Time to go back to reality

This dream of mine will never come true.

You've already moved on

And found somebody new...

But even though your feelings

For me were never real,

That doesn't change the way

I will always feel...

The love I have for you

Is very strong

Doesn't matter if it's right

Or if it's wrong...

A special place in my heart

You will always hold,

No matter how many years go by

My love for you will never get old...

Dusty Pages...

One look into those eyes 

I'd kiss the ground beneath you. 

Orion watched a perfect love 

and a kiss beneath the moon. 

I thought in you I'd find myself 

I found more than I could've dreamed. 

A love to beat all other loves 

...or only how it seemed. 

Waking to my tears 

Sleeping with my dreams 

You taught me how to love 

You showed me what it means. 

One day a grave will hold me 

Touched only by you 

Breathing my last, holding my heart 

Praying my love will die too. 

I was beauty, I was sunshine. 

I was Autumn, I was me. 

I was everything you wanted 

You were everything I need. 

Saying goodbye to our flowers 

Yearning still to say hello 

Slowly counting away the hours 

Until the day I let you go.

Corrupted Angel...

Once there was an angel

Full of love, hope, and grace.

Many had adored this creature

And recognized her by her beautiful face!

Her eyes were not what they seemed

For they looked a different color each day.

But something happened to this loveable angel

That made her beauty fade away...

Her skin turned deadly pale,

And her golden hair turned white;

Her eyes looked empty and dull,

When they used to be full and bright...

Darkness filled the skies,

And this poor angel's heart.

Nobody knows exactly why 

This adorable creature fell apart...

But rumor has it that she met another angel

Who promised to love her forever, 

Until one day that angel left her,

For another pair of feathers....

And so in return this angel was corrupted,

And stopped living altogether...

Just because of one angel’s promise,

A promise of being loved forever....

Where Do I Go ?

I sometimes brood and sit by myself

Wondering if you ever felt the way I felt

Where do I go when there's no help?

Suicidal thoughts tell me to go left

But I know taking me away

Wont help cause close to you I want to stay.

I know perfection is not for anyone to be

But for some reason you are the one on who I see;

Even though that isn't right.

My thoughts are high as a plane

While we talk all night...

But there is always that one same fight

As if we were on different flight

My life was lost until you came to my side

And showed me hope. 

It was there so for you I stayed alive

I look at you and see your love with no sense,

But for some reason 

You chose our journey to end.

I chose seconds over minutes

I look at you, but in a different scene; 

I don't understand the words you speak

Do you know what I mean?

I thought we were meant to be a team

But I guess there wont be such... 

All I need you to know

Is that I LOVE you 

LOVE you so so much....

Heart-breaker...

Its been a long time

Since I've written you a rhyme,

Its been a while

Since I've seen you smile.

Its been days

Since I've seen your enlightened face,

Its been weeks

Since I've heard you speak.

Its been forever since it was only us who walked,

Its been forever since we've had a heart to heart talk.

Its already becoming a trend,

We're only spending time with friends.

I don't want to make it a fuss,

But we never have time for us.

I always dream of my arm around your waist,

And the sweet delicious taste

Of your warm and tender kiss,

It is all of these that I miss.

I don't know how you feel,

And if what you say is real.

Your emotions nowadays never show,

And now I will never know.

I don't know who you even are,

We're so disconnected and you seem so far.

Its me this feeling is haunting,

I don't even know if its me your wanting.

Maybe I shouldn't complain,

You too might feel the same pain,

But I guess thats it, I'm all worn out,

I have forgotten love, and what its all about.

You have wiped the smile of my face,

You have made me look so blue,

Its only occurred to me now,

That its over and its through.

You were more than just a fling,

It was only yesterday when I almost heard church bells ring.

You have given me the world

Well thats what I thought,

I didn't expect you to end up as 

Something you were not.

With you I could have done anything if I tried,

You weren't worth all the tears that I have cried.

I thought you were different 

I thought you would stay,

But you took advantage 

You threw my heart away.

We promised each other our trust

And that we would both play fair,

We promised each other our honesty 

And that we would both be there.

I found out that you were a girl of many faces,

This was just another disguise,

I found out later you were playing me 

And you were full of lies.

So why am I writing you this poem? 

Here, I'll give you a clue!

I cant stand it, 

I don't know what to do.

I have fallen for the wrong girl,

I have fallen for a faker,

I have done the stupidest thing,

I have fallen for a heart-breaker.

Everything To Me...

You left me here.

Without anything to hold on to

Nothing but sad memories

And a song that I can't stand to listen to

Thanks for the times that meant

Everything to me

But nothing to you.

I was just a game, a test run.

Just to see how things would go

I guess you didn't like it

Because you pulled over

And left me here alone

You walked away from this 

Like it never happened

But in reality you held my hand

You kissed my lips

You held me close

And you pushed away the memories

That meant the most

We still talk like we use to,

Laugh when nothing's funny

And look at each other

Like we're still inlove

Someone came between us

And that person got in the way

Of you being my everything

So I'm sorry I wasn't good for you

But I'm here for you, no matter what

Because you were everything to me

When I was nothing to you

And I'm still holding on to the memories

Like we both use to.

Can't Move on...

Looking back only makes me mad;

I can see what I loved,

I remember how it was.

I hate my feelings all the time,

And I can't run away from my depressing rhymes.

Jealous of the ones you actually love,

You make them seem blessed,

You treat them as if they are divine.

Never giving me my time,

And allow me to shine.

I must be worth nothing to you,

‘‘Cause with every word you say

You constantly turn me away.

No longer are you words pure,

And my direction with you is unclear

My heart is fragile,

My words are heavyhearted,

My thoughts are miserable,

Every step is suffering,

And every part tells me the loving is foregone.

Everything we had is gone.

I should move on,

But my heart keeps pushing me along.

I can only see what your putting in front of me,

And your clogging my thoughts

With what we used to be.

The long past of when we were perfect,

And I wasn't so down

In pain I wasn't about to drown.

Times are different now;

I must leave you behind,

The memories I had I'll disavow 

Throwing you out of my mind.

I'm letting those moments rot in time,

I'm showing you I'm not blind,

That my life I can find

Without us entwined.

But will I ever rewind

The lies in my heart

That you loved me from the start.

The times you denied impart

While tearing us apart.

Will I be able to part?

Is my heart ready to depart?

The Ocean...

Walking; Talking; Chatting; Clicking;
Crashing against the gray stone rocks -
So fierce intense each step by step.
The ocean in the flicker of an eye.
Leading from high down to the beach,
So narrow steep naive and dark,
And yet so pure like the fine sands,
which our feet, together, have still to touch.
Hold closer, closer, capture it all - 
Seashell treasures keep memories;
Waves of the night lost in the sea.
Deep true endless romances of the waters, 
Are cherished lovingly on shore.
Graceful perfection, sea breeze air 
Silent kisses, stars keep smiles.
Beneath the play shelter,
Hidden from all, nerves swim, adrenalin
But wait... the innocence of the moment
gone. Back to your corner we go,
So gentle intense like the deep mystery.
Hold close, closer, remember all,
Keep your mind clear and heart open
'cause each drop that fills that ocean is a tear I've cried 
reaching out for you...

Dream Come True...

When I close my eyes

Late at night,

I can feel you beside me

Holding me tight.

Your close touch

And gentle embrace,

I softly gaze

Into your sweet smiling face.

A dream soars

Throughout my mind,

The image of us

Begins to bind.

You give me that warm feeling

Deep down inside,

Everything I feel for you

Is difficult to hide.

I wake up

Wondering if it's real,

I know my heart beats

For the love I feel.

The connection between us

Is clearly strong,

Being wrapped in your arms

I feel I belong.

I'd sacrifice my life

Just to keep you safe,

Nothing can harm you

Or take you away.

My heart dances in circles

Beneath the moon light,

I know my love for you

Is well worth the fight.

The comfort you give

Brings a soft smile,

My love is true

Nothing false or vile.

One kiss from you

Makes my heart feel whole,

The power of love

Takes over my soul.

As I look into

Your gorgeous eyes,

My fears seem to fly

Away through the skies.

You give me the strength

To make it through each day,

I know I'll always be by your side

Here to stay.

To me you are like

An angel in disguise,

And I know our love

Could never die.

Even through

Those dark stormy nights,

I'll quickly run

To make you feel alright.

If a cold tear

Should fall from your face,

I'll try my hardest

To take its place.

If you feel you have

No one to guide you,

I'll be there

To walk beside you.

When you're feeling

The bluest of blue,

I'll always be there

To tenderly comfort you.

I knew

From the very start,

That you would be the one

Holding the key to my heart.

If you need help

I'll show you the way,

You're all I ever wanted

And I need you to stay.

Your warm touch

Makes my heart sing,

To me

You're everything.

I fell for You...

Alone tonight,

Unable to see your face.

Another day passes me by,

I'm trapped in this dark place.

Friday slowly strolls by,

Saturday is nothing but a blur.

People try to speak to me,

But I cannot concur.

I'm missing you like crazy

I can't wait until you come home

Then once again you can hold me

The loneliness can go.

Days go by so slow,

Forget about the nights.

I lay awake at night,

Hoping you're alright.

I know you're only gone,

For a short amount of time,

But the fear is still in me,

That when you return you are no longer mine.

I know this sounds crazy,

But these feelings are bottled so well.

I cannot hold them any longer,

I'm into you; I fell.

The feelings in my heart,

I've never felt for someone else.

The humbleness and love,

Is more than I've ever felt.

I just want you to know,

That I miss you so much.

I just want you to know,

That I'm longing for your touch.

I can't wait until you come back,

I am counting down the days.

But I really do hope you are having fun,

But still missing me the same way.

When you come back,

How happy I will be.

For, right now I'm locked up,

Until you come and set me free.

I want you to know,

The best I've had, is you.

And that when you are gone,

I think and dream of you!

Adiós Mi Amor...

I first saw you in the winds of the Spring,

Far from the daisies,

In the carnival of drums and string!

It was cold and dark in my world then,

I didn't care to look a you,

Never thought I would put this in pen...

I was lost in the land of snow,

For such a long time that I didnt know

If I was alive or dead beneath,

If I were real or just a myth...

Then slowly the ice began to melt,

The sun rised and warmer it felt.

I thought of revenge and that I would slay,

Didn't know it was just a fate's play.

Realised only through a friend's folly,

We spoke again and I found you jolly.

Again we met after a quarter year,

This time it felt so good my dear

To have you played on with my mischievous antic

Throughout the journey, it was fantastic!

Seeing you red with your adorable rage,

Smiling I began our Bon Voyage!

In the realm of Poseidon came true a dream,

You appeared as a mermaid who couldn't swim.

It was not that I fell for you then,

But everthing changed on our way back in train.

It may be your words, may be your thoughts,

Or maybe your life, your smile, there are lots....

This was a different feeling I had for you,

All the tragedies you faced I wanted to undo...

I lost my past, my pain and my tear 

I revived again to live with you my dear.

But, alas!

There is something I should have known

That pain and tears were never to be blown,

That it was my destiny to live with them,

Marked in my life as the sacred emblem.

You were in love but it was not me,

Was my love not true enough for thee?

You took my love as a prank, as a joke

But I was serious, and perhaps a stupid bloke.

Thus were the last words, "Adios mi amor,

My love for you was from my heart's core!

Even though you couldn't be mine in this birth,

I would wish you to be my wife till the end of the earth."

Because the thing most painful in this world I claim

Is to sit beside the one you love knowing that you can never have them!